Wish I Had An Angel

I wish I had an angel
For one moment of love
I wish I had your angel
Your Virgin Mary undone
I’m in love with my lust
Burning angelwings to dust
I wish I had your angel tonight

Deep into a dying day
I took a step outside an innocent heart
Prepare to hate me fall when I may
This night will hurt you like never before

Old loves they die hard
Old lies they die harder

I wish...

I’m going down so frail ’n cruel
Drunken disguise changes all the rules

Old loves...

I Wish...

Greatest thrill
Not to kill
But to have the prize of the night
Hypocrite
Wannabe friend
13th disciple who betrayed me for nothing!

Last dance, first kiss
Your touch my bliss
Beauty always comes with dark thoughts

I wish...

Stargazers

A grand oasis in the vastness of gloom
Child of dew-spangled cobweb Mother to the moon
Constellations beholders of the 3^rd vagrant
Theater for the play of life

Tragedienne of heavens
Watching the eyes of the night
Sailing the virgin oceans
A planetride for the Mother and Child

Floating upon the quiet hydrogen lakes
In this ambrosial merry-go-round they will gaze
Ephemereal life touched by a billion-year show
Separating the poet from the woe

Tragedienne of heavens...

Oracle of the Delphian Domine
Witness of Adam’s frailty
Seer of the master prophecy
The stellar world her betrothed

Wanderers in cosmic caravan
Universal bond - The Starborn

A son in the search for the truth
Following the pages of Almagest
Discovering the origin of dreams
Stargazers ride through the ancient realms

Tragedienne of heavens...

The Kinslayer

For whom the gun tolls
For whom the prey weeps
Bow before a war
Call it religion

Some wounds never heal
Some tears never will
Dry for the unkind
Cry for mankind

Even the dead cry
Their only comfort
Kill your friend, I don’t care
Orchid kids, blinded stare

Need to understand
No need to forgive
No truth no sense left to be followed

„Facing this unbearable fear like meeting an old friend”
„Time to die, poor mates, You made me what I am!”
„In this world of a million religions everyone prays the same way”
„Your praying is in vain It’ll all be over soon”
„Father help me, save me a place by your side!”
„There is no god Our creed is but for ourselves”

„Not a hero unless you die Our species eat the wounded ones”

„Drunk with the blood of your victims
I do feel your pity-wanting pain,
Lust for fame, a deadly game”

„Run away with your impeccable kin!”

„Good wombs hath borne bad sons...”

Cursing, God, why?
Falling for every lie
Survivors’ guilt
In us forevermore

15 candles
Redeemers of this world
Dwell in hypocrisy:
„How were we supposed to know?”

4 pink ones
9 blue ones
2 black ones

In memory of the Redeemers 20.4.1999.

Ever Dream

Ever felt away with me
Just once that all I need
Entwined in finding you one day
Ever felt away without me
My love, it lies so deep
Ever dream of me

Would you do it with me
Heal the scars and change the stars
Would you do it for me
Turn loose the heaven within

I’d take you away
Castaway on a lonely day
Bosom for a teary cheek
My song can but borrow your grace
Come out, come out wherever you are
So lost in your sea
Give in, give in for my touch
For my taste for my lust

Your beauty cascaded on me
In this white night fantasy

„All I ever craved were the two dreams I shared with you.
One I now have, will the other one ever dream remain.
For yours I truly wish to be.”

Elvenpath

(In the sheltering shade of the forest
Calling calming silence
Accompanied only by the full moon
The howling of a night wolf
And the path under my bare feet...
...The Elvenpath)

Hearing music from the deepest forest
Songs as a seduction of sirens
The elf-folk is calling me

Tapio, Bear-king, Ruler of the forest
Mielikki, Bluecloak, Healer of the ill and sad
Open the gate and let me follow the uncarven path

The way to the lands
Where as a hero I stand
The path where Beauty met the Beast
Elvenpath
It’s the honesty of these worlds
Ruled by magic and mighty swords
That makes my soul long for the past
Elvenpath

The moonwitch took me to a ride on a broomstick
Introduced me to her old friend home gnome
Told me to keep the sauna warm for him

At the grove I met the rest - the folk of my fantasies
Bilbo, Sparhawk, goblins and pixies
Snowman, Willow, trolls and the seven dwarves

The path goes forever on

The way to the lands...

As I return to my room
And as sleep takes me by my hand
Madrigals from the woods
Carry me to neverland
In this spellbound night
The world’s an elvish sight
In this spellbound night
The world’s an elvish sight

Bless The child

„I was born amidst the purple waterfalls.
I was weak, yet not unblessed.
Dead to the world.
Alive for the journey.
One night I dreamt a white rose withering,
A newborn drowning a lifetime loneliness.
I dreamt all my future.
Relived my past.
A witnessed the Beauty of the Beast.”

Where have all the feelings gone?
Why has all the laughter ceased?
Why am I loved only when I’m gone?
Gone back in time to bless the child
Think of me long enough to make a memory
Come bless the child one more time

How can I ever feel again?
Given the chance would I return?

I’ve never felt so alone in my life
As I drank from a cup which was counting my time
There’s a poison drop in this cup of Man
To drink it is to follow the left hand path

„Where have all the feelings gone?
Why is the deadliest sin - to love as I loved you?
Now unblessed, homesick in time,
soon to be freed from care, from human pain.
My tale is the most bitter truth:
Time pays us but with earth & dust, and a dark, silent grave.
Remember, my child: Without innocence the cross is only iron,
Hope is only an illusion & Ocean Soul’s nothing but a name...

The Child bless thee & keep thee forever”

Nemo

This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart as compass

This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I’d give my everything
Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore

My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins

Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name

Oh, how I wish...

Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go

Oh, how I wish...

Sleeping Sun

The sun is sleeping quietly
Once upon a century
Wistful oceans calm and red
Ardent caresses laid to rest

For my dreams I hold my life
For wishes I behold my night
The truth at the end of time
Losing faith makes a crime

I wish for this night-time
to last for a lifetime
The darkness around me
Shores of a solar sea
Oh how I wish to go down with the sun

Sleeping
Weeping
With you
Sorrow has a human heart
From my god it will depart
I’d sail before a thousand moons
Never finding where to go

Two hundred twenty-two days of light
Will be desired by a night
A moment for the poet’s play
Until there’s nothing left to say

I wish for this night-time...

Dead To The World

All the same take me away
We’re dead to the world

The child gave thought to the poet’s world
Gave comfort to the Fallen
(Heartfelt, lovelorn)

Remaining, yet still uninvited
Those words scented my soul
(Lonely soul, Ocean soul)

It’s not the monsters under your bed
It is the Man next door
That makes you fear, makes you cry,
Makes you cry for the child
All the wars are fought among those lonely men
Unarmed, unscarred

I don’t want to die a scarless man
A lonely soul
(Tell me now what to do)

I studied silence to learn the music
I joined the sinful to regain innocence

Heaven queen, cover me
In all that blue
Little boy, such precious joy
Is dead to the world

Heaven queen, carry me
Away from all pain
All the same take me away
We’re dead to the world

Dead, silent, constant
Yet always changing
My favorite view of this world

As he died, he will return to die in me again
Weaving the cloth, giving birth to the Century Child
Who gave his life not for the world but for me
Innocence reborn once more.

Over The Hills And Far Away

They came for him one winter’s night
Arrested, he was bound
They said there’d been a robbery,
His pistol had been found.

They marched him to the station house,
He waited till the dawn
And as they led him to the dock,
He knew that he’d been wronged
„You stand accused of robbery”,
He heard the bailiff say
He knew without an alibi,
Tomorrow’s light would mourn his freedom.

Over the hills and far away,
For ten long years he’ll count the days
Over the mountains and the seas,
A prisoner’s life for him there’ll be.

He knew that it would cost him dear,
But yet he dare not say
Just where he’d been that fateful night,
A secret it must stay
He had to fight back tears of rage
His heart beat like a drum
For with the wife of his best friend,
He spent his final night of freedom.

Over the hills and far away,
He swears he will return one day
Far from the mountains and the seas,
Back in her arms again he’ll be
Over the hills and far away.

Over the hills and,
Over the hills and,
Over the hills and far away.

Each night within his prison cell,
He looks out through the bars
He reads the letters that she wrote
One day he’ll know the taste of freedom.

Over the hills and far away,
She prays he will return one day
As sure as the rivers reach the seas,
Back in his arms again she’ll be.

Over the hills and far away,
He swears he will return one day
As sure as the river reach the seas,
Back in his arms is where she’ll be.

Over the hills and far away,
She prays he will return one day
As sure as the rivers reach the sea,
Back in her arms is where he’ll be.

Over the hills,
Over the hills and far away.

Over the hills,
Over the hills and far away

Deep Silent Complete

In your creation heaven did decree
That in your arms sweet death should dwell

Deep Silent Complete
Black velvet sea
The sirens are calling for me

Saved my soul thinking „This song’s a lie”
Sand on the shore is so dry

Deep Silent Complete
Black velvet sea
Brave day sinking in endless night

The age will say „This poet lies”
Heaven never touched earthly face
The age will say „This night was ours”
Blessed with the Deep
The Silent the Complete

Sacrament Of Wilderness

Naked in midwinter magic
Lies an angel in the snow

The frozen figure crossed by tracks of wolves
An encounter symbolic yet truthful
With a hungry choir of wolves
An agreement immemorial to be born

Dulcet elvenharps from a dryad forest
Accompany wall the charming tunes
Of a sacrament by a campfire
A promise between the tameless
And the one with a tool
Tonight the journey from a cave begins

I want to hunt with the tameless heart
I want to learn the wisdom of mountains afar
We will honor the angel in the snow
We will make the streams for our children flow

Wrapped in furs beneath the northern lights
From my cave I watch the land untamed
And wonder if some becoming season
Will make the angel melt in shame

I want to hunt with the tameless heart...

Walking In The Air

We’re walking in the air
We’re floating in the moonlit sky
The people far below are sleeping as we fly

I’m holding very tight
I’m riding in the midnight blue
I’m finding can fly so high above with you

Far across the wold

The villages go by like trees
The rivers and the hills
The forests and the streams

Children gaze open mouth
Taken by surprise
Nobody down below believes their eyes

We’re surfing in the air
We’re swimming in the frozen sky
We’re drifting over icy
Mountains floating by

Suddenly swooping low on an ocean deep
Arousing of a mighty monster from its sleep

We’re walking in the air
We’re floating in the midnight sky
And everyone who sees us greets us as we fly

Wishmaster

Master!
Apprentice!
Heartborne, 7^th Seeker
Warrior!
Disciple!
In me the Wishmaster

Elbereth
Lorien

A dreamy-eyed child staring into night
On a journey to storyteller’s mind
Whispers a wish speaks with the stars the words are silent in him
Distant sigh from a lonely heart
„I’ll be with you soon, my Shalafi”
Grey Havens my destiny

Master!...

Silvara
Starbreeze

Sla-Mori the one known only by Him
To august realms, the sorcery within
If you hear the call of arcane lore,
Your world shall rest on Earth no more
A maiden elf calling with her cunning song
„Meet me at the Inn of Last Home”
Heartborne will find the way!

Master!...

Wishmaster

Crusade for Your will
A child, dreamfinder
The Apprentice becoming...

Master!...

Dead Boy’s Poem

Born from silence, silence full of it
A perfect concert my best friend
So much to live for, so much to die for
If only my heart had a home

Sing what you can’t say
Forget what you can’t play
Hasten to drown into beautiful eyes
Walk within my poetry, this dying music
My loveletter to nobody

Never sigh for better world
It’s already composed, played and told
Every thought the music I write
Everything a wish for the night

Wrote for the eclipse, wrote for the virgin
Died for the beauty the one in the garden
Created a kingdom, reached for the wisdom
Failed in becoming a god
Never sigh...

„If you read this line, remember not the hand that wrote it
Remember only the verse, songmaker’s cry, the one without tears
For I’ve given this its strength and it has become my only strength.
Comforting home, mother’s lap, chance for immortality
Where being wanted became a thrill I never knew
The sweet piano writing down my life”

„Teach me passion for I fear it’s gone
Show me love, hold the lorn
So much more I wanted to give to the ones who love me
I’m sorry

Time will tell (this bitter farewell)
I live no more to shame nor me nor you

And you... I wish I didn’t feel for you anymore...”

A lonely soul... An ocean soul...

High Hopes

Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our troughts strayed constandly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begin

Along the long road and on down the causeway
Do they still meet there by the cut

There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The night of wonder
Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide

At a higher altitude with flag unfuried
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world

Eneumbered forever by desire and ambition
There’s a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we’ve been so many time

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river

Forever and ever